See saw.......the concept of balance, once again

Why is the idea of straddling the middle so difficult for me?

There is no middle. There is one side or the other. Oh crap. Now I just thought, "There is grey." So, what do I mean? hmmmm.

It think it means that I can't stand to be stuck in the middle - not knowing whether to go left or right, up or down, backward or forward.........you get the point.

I want conviction for everything I do. 

Now, that's a good word. I don't know that I've ever written it before. I wish I could give "conviction" away wrapped in a bow.