The audible sigh

You know the moment - you take a deep breath

others could think it means you're impatient or mad or frustrated
and you could be
or maybe you're just letting go

of the things you could say

because

they aren't worth it
they don't matter to what will happen
they don't help you achieve what you want out of this moment
they just add "baggage" to the situation
they are the conversation you've had so many times before - you already know how this movie ends, so maybe it's time to change the script

the time we have together is precious

m

Life is about the moments

There are some moments that don't sneak by. They are powerful, positive and negative - we remember them because they significantly change our lives and who we are.

There are other moments that sneak by unnoticed. I'm trying to have less of those because life is made up mostly of these moments. Instead of letting them sneak by, I want to recognize them for how they:

• teach me
• make me question
• sadden me
• reinforce me
• feed me
• excite me
• change me

There are daily reminders that life isn't what you expect it to be, so I'm challenging myself to be IN IT every moment.

M

Finding my way forward while blooming in existence

I've spent the last 6 months finding my way forward and blooming in existence, fiercely protecting against the notion of just existing.

It's been a hard battle at times, but one that I'd never abandon.

I know what it's like to be stuck, not moving forward. I also know what it's like to live without even thinking about whether or not you're moving forward; you just let life happen. I wish I had the answer to how to shift out of those "gears" when you're in them. Even when your well versed in what it feels like to move forward, it can be difficult or impossible to force yourself to shift gears.

I've learned two things:

1. I need to remember that people can help keep me sane
2. It's all just temporary